life

no, this is not a human love poem…trust me. it’s me talking to God after recognizing His guidancei tried loving youhid the sunshine, packed the tearsdusted off a million fearswondered why i couldn’t heari tried loving yousearched my heart in different landsheld the bible in my handtook a fall but not a standi tried loving…

i don’t have time (never do) to explain why i love life right now but i just want ya’ll to know that i do. i could spend hours counting God’s blessings…i really like knowing that.

vacation days ended on friday 🙁 but i’m sooooooo thankful i was able to have them! now we’re in day 2 of a retreat for all the Deans, RAs, and DAs in our dorm. it has been quite challenging. had i remembered what it was like 7 years ago, i probably wouldn’t have applied this…

first day of vacation doesn’t seem like vacation…didn’t get up early enough…it’s all about the crack of dawn baby! this’ll be all over too soon… oh what a tangled web we weavewhen all we want is to acheive first comes lovethen come marriagethen comes the… okay, laundry awaits 🙂

(wish i had a laptop…soon.) i’m feeling a bit restless but awefully tired and yet happy all at once. despite the last post, i’m a happy woman. so i’d rather stay awake and contemplate my happiness. i’m in the office that i share with 3 others. my plants are here b/c my place is too…

how does that go exactly? how do i maintain honesty when folks don’t want to hear it and when i’m not even always open to the option? and how do i stay positive as i council others?girl, they aren’t all bad. trust me, there’s hope, there’s one for you.sure, it’s truth and i’m not anywhere…

though i fear verbal diarrhea in this moment, it’s about time i write…it’s been so long…feels like months and months but it’s only been weeks.let’s start with blessing:1. i’m still happy to be here. my advisor keeps asking me if i’m still happy with my decision to come…it’s part of his way of checking up…