one of the big things in my life i’m trying to change is my divided self. i’m used to being one way in this corner and another way in that corner as i living among different circles and work in varied settings. it’s just my way of being me. but it has become a nuisance….
life
san fran, shakes, and music
it’s been real fun but this chick is knackered! (those were my words last night and i didn’t get a chance to post them. i ended up going to bed really late in order to overcome my jet lag. these folks are 3 hours behind my regular zone. i slept till 5am and went back…
Order My Steps
That’s basically how my morning prayer concluded. And I’ve had an interesting day filled with what I know to be God-ordered steps. I mean, what are the chances that I’d be alert enough at work to accomplish so many necessary things, tying up lose ends to ensure smooth future events? And how could I possibly…
wanting to feel
i should never post at 12:30am since thoughts aren’t straight at this hour but anyway… if there were an “emotion” pill, i’d probably try to get a periodic dose. it’s not that i want to be able to cry more easily–not at all–it’s just that i think i’m too distant. death happens and i put…
as if it isn’t official….
death is a sick, sick thing two people i knew are dead within the span of 2 weeks…were we close? no. but that’s not the point. the point is that their husbands, children, siblings, parents, etc., now wake up without them. today’s funeral was for a 30 yr old woman. …30. tomorrow’s funeral will be…
fortune cookies
“You will spend old age in comfort and material wealth” on one hand i feel pretty okay with this fortune. but on my foot i feel the pain of responsibility from the weight of the shackles that bind me to… money while i really like the idea of comfort i get uneasy with “material wealth.”…
it’s hot
but i’m so glad i slept okay and woke early enough to blade before the onslaught of humidity welcomed the day. today i’ll finish a book i’m reading…hopefully…reading is a sure way for me to fall asleep. having trouble sleeping? read. want to forget about the troubles of this world via slumber? read. anxiety sustaining…