i’m hitting pause on the final details check. (this weekend is our annual CONNECT Conference.) you’d think i’d be frantic. i thought i’d be frantic but instead i’m shouting “yay God!” it’s an internal shout…i’m typically only loud during competition or “no he didn’t” sorts of conversations. it’s also an internal shout because i’m tired, […]
a sanctuary poem
[set to Tenebrae: Second Movement performed by Kronos Quartet] Reminder number one: walk slowly. Steps matter Smoke rises to greet the sky afraid. Is it enough? I sat on the floor today Carpet circa 1995 Tough grey-brown, bland #11 Comfortless reliability stretched for meters around my exhausted frame Lean brown-skinned girl, twisted locks set ponytail-like […]
sleepless nights
it’s not the first time i’ve been unable to remain in that free state called sleep, the minutes and hours of peace that i often crave. no one gets on your real nerves when you’re sleeping. no one rudely interrupts your true concentration when you’re sleeping. you can change the way your dream is going, […]
sunsets are good for your health
very rarely do i leave work bright eyed and bushy tailed. today was no exception. and with so much time spent in my head (from just a few minutes after waking up), processing questions and frustrations, thinking through possibly needed rebuttals, and all other manner of madness that i’ve done for so much of my […]
swift change
burnout destroys creativity, faith, and a multitude of other things. the worst is when burnout is caused by all the “good” things like ministry, service, a good work ethic, etc… goodness in moderation…i have to find a proper balance. i can’t return to where i was these last few days. i’m just thankful for the […]
nope
i woke up this morning and said no. as the day progressed, i felt more confident saying no and somehow i know i won’t regret it. i’m staying put for the next 3 months. perhaps i’ll be able to go another time…perhaps not. for now, it’s Lacombe –Alberta, Canada…big sky country. and what matters is, […]
peace i do not know
when i make big decisions, i pray about them and if i’m at peace with the thought of saying “yes” to something (especially when i’ve been really confused) then i’m confident that “yes” is right. i don’t have peace at this moment. i’m going to spend the day getting more information. my next post will […]