Satisfaction often feels beyond my reality, as if maybe I’d have it if I…
And those ellipses lead to nothing fruitful.
life
Things to do (100 words)
The turtle pendant on my bracelet reminds me to slow down. My eye sockets remind me to get more sleep tonight.
A reminder that you can’t do everything
Some years ago, I was frustrated about not being able to move something forward on the job front. In a conversation with my sister, Abigail, she shared that she understood that frustration first hand and that sometimes others get to see the results of what you began…it may feel unfair, but it’s part of life….
We’re used to beating ourselves up
Ppl: “How’s your new job going?” Me: “It’s hard to take a day off coz I like the people I work with.” Also me: “If this were my first ministry position, it would be kicking my tail just like the first one did. I’ve grown. There are still challenges, but I’m not stressed out like…
sabbatical: week 1
In no other way could I have known how many cymbals, sirens and bulldozers were tromping around in my head, frolicking like job-less teens in the summertime, except by stepping away from my job for two months. The noise was deafening, overwhelming. What percentage of the noise was inner critic or outer, I don’t know….
The good meetup
I’m that person who looks around O’Hare wondering who I know because there must be someone; the world isn’t that big, right? If I could page the entire airport, I would. “Hi folks. My name is Michaela Lawrence Jeffery. At least one of you knows me. Meet me in the F gates.” Twice. Twice I’ve…
Buying my life back
The event in this early stage of an essay took place several years ago. One day I’ll finish the essay. The heaviness I felt that afternoon is one I may not forget. So much, perhaps even everything, felt impossible. I’m not sure why I decided to go to a craft store. Did I believe I’d…