Author: wordhabit

i’ve barely cried and i’m already sick of it. sick of it !

this time around i’m letting people love me up close. i’m letting friends into my world of pain and confusion and they want to be here…they’re not annoyed. the love me. and this time around i’m less distressed because it’s better when we’re together. went to the beach tonight with Justin, Todd and Tricia. we…

just talked to my RN Ida. she’s lovely, a blessing to be around. she has this calm demeanour and she loves the Lord so beautifully. we spoke of contentment and doing God’s will be it big or small in our eyes. as introverted as i can be, i love people. my NA, LaRunda, is a…

BP: 114 over 69 now it’s time for breakfast. i think i got too little; i’ll have to order an omelet maybe. slept well. got the 5am wake up for life donation otherwise known as the blood draw. hope to see my RN and MD soooooooooooooooooooooooon…but i think i can be patience. after all, how…

BP: 131 over 80 sprite before bed to calm the stomach talking to Tehani and LaTanya

BP: 115 over 73 it’s up. i think it’s from crying. bah humbug!

it’s like i’ve been slapped silently, a strange abuse, a breach of contract. how dare you not say what i want to hear? looks like i won’t be out of here till tomorrow. God, i’d love a miracle. is belief what you need? i don’t have much, i’m sorry. help my unbelief…