It’s crazy. You’d think that after nine intimate months you’d be able to say you know someone. And then the doctor presses down hard on your stomach, pulls carefully yet powerfully and she appears. You knew she’d be a big baby but not this big. You knew she’d have hair but not jet black. You…
Author: wordhabit
Truth Telling
I’m so happy. Today is my last day of Heparin. Filling a syringe and then injecting it is annoying. Lovenox is so much simpler. These aren’t words I ever thought I’d say. I almost cried the first few times I injected Lovenox into my stomach fat. Now I’m a prescription drug shooting pro with anticoagulant…
yes, i really am ok
ask me again tomorrow. tuesday may roll in with tears and gnashing teeth but just for now, all is well. that’s how it’s been for a while now. good one day, bad the next. feeling whole one moment and empty the next. energized and then gross as acid reflux strikes yet again. and i’m one of…
#sabbathing
A friend from seminary introduced me to this via her twitter feed. For all my life, sunset Friday to sunset Saturday has been Sabbath–24hrs of rest from regularly daily rhythms. I didn’t come to value it until college. In grad school I questioned it quite seriously and re-learned its value. The rest of my life…
…and this is love (prego edition)
I post a lot about being pregnant and I’m sure that folks are really tired of seeing my Facebook updates on the matter. The pics. The statuses. Oh, the hashtags. I probably used to be really sensitive about not dwelling on one thing for too long, changing up subject matters and such. 9 months ago,…
#ferguson. Scattered thoughts. Part 1.
(Forgive my lateness…I’ve been mulling over this for a while, unsure of how to talk about it. The other night I couldn’t sleep and the words began to form. I finally added more days later.) I don’t follow the news very closely–I simply don’t make the time. But some things are hard to ignore like…
dreams and such
For two nights in a row, I’ve had dreams that reveal my fear, a fear I didn’t even know I had, a fear that I won’t get to see my daughter. I know. Sounds crazy, right? Two nights ago, I dreamed that because of how out of it I’d been after delivery, I had no…