That’s basically how my morning prayer concluded. And I’ve had an interesting day filled with what I know to be God-ordered steps. I mean, what are the chances that I’d be alert enough at work to accomplish so many necessary things, tying up lose ends to ensure smooth future events? And how could I possibly…
wanting to feel
i should never post at 12:30am since thoughts aren’t straight at this hour but anyway… if there were an “emotion” pill, i’d probably try to get a periodic dose. it’s not that i want to be able to cry more easily–not at all–it’s just that i think i’m too distant. death happens and i put…
as if it isn’t official….
death is a sick, sick thing two people i knew are dead within the span of 2 weeks…were we close? no. but that’s not the point. the point is that their husbands, children, siblings, parents, etc., now wake up without them. today’s funeral was for a 30 yr old woman. …30. tomorrow’s funeral will be…
fortune cookies
“You will spend old age in comfort and material wealth” on one hand i feel pretty okay with this fortune. but on my foot i feel the pain of responsibility from the weight of the shackles that bind me to… money while i really like the idea of comfort i get uneasy with “material wealth.”…
it’s hot
but i’m so glad i slept okay and woke early enough to blade before the onslaught of humidity welcomed the day. today i’ll finish a book i’m reading…hopefully…reading is a sure way for me to fall asleep. having trouble sleeping? read. want to forget about the troubles of this world via slumber? read. anxiety sustaining…
the way i was raised
women did everything…that’s why i’m so seemingly independent. the toilet overflows–i know how to plunge, turn off water, use a mop if need be, etc. a mouse enters–i shriek momentarily, i clear away all paper from the floor, i look for drops, etc grass grows–i get out the mower, check gas levels, fill if need…
death too soon
so yes, we’re at the age when more family dies…but mothers? a friend’s mum died last night. she was a beautiful woman… i can’t imagine what he’s feeling right now, what he’s thinking. …