(I don’t pretend to have clear answers to all this mess. But I know there are things I can do and one of those things is write. I pray for wisdom to discover the others.) I was probably 19 when a group of us college kids got together, came up with a strategy and presented…
the unfair
I’m laying in bed with my daughter asleep on my chest. Well, I’m not really laying. I’m in some this-will-hurt-badly-later position that resembles laying. Anyway, I can’t help but think of my friend whose little boy is fighting to live at 24 weeks old. This world is a mess. I get to spoil my daughter…
my current situation
We quickly and quietly hunker down for the night after she’s asleep. Well, it’s not yet “for the night” but more like “for the 2 to 3 hour segments she’ll bless us with.” We bring up people and situations to pray for, all in hushed tones, and then we pray. And I’ve honestly asked God…
Ella
It’s crazy. You’d think that after nine intimate months you’d be able to say you know someone. And then the doctor presses down hard on your stomach, pulls carefully yet powerfully and she appears. You knew she’d be a big baby but not this big. You knew she’d have hair but not jet black. You…
Truth Telling
I’m so happy. Today is my last day of Heparin. Filling a syringe and then injecting it is annoying. Lovenox is so much simpler. These aren’t words I ever thought I’d say. I almost cried the first few times I injected Lovenox into my stomach fat. Now I’m a prescription drug shooting pro with anticoagulant…
yes, i really am ok
ask me again tomorrow. tuesday may roll in with tears and gnashing teeth but just for now, all is well. that’s how it’s been for a while now. good one day, bad the next. feeling whole one moment and empty the next. energized and then gross as acid reflux strikes yet again. and i’m one of…
#sabbathing
A friend from seminary introduced me to this via her twitter feed. For all my life, sunset Friday to sunset Saturday has been Sabbath–24hrs of rest from regularly daily rhythms. I didn’t come to value it until college. In grad school I questioned it quite seriously and re-learned its value. The rest of my life…