This Is the Stuff just popped into my head as I clicked “new post.” Been up since 3 and moved from “I should be able to go back to sleep” to “it ain’t happnin” as all the stuff that I have yet to complete at work flooded my brain and then my knee pain kicked in,…
life
Rejection
Here’s a terrible “freshman essay” first line for you: Rejection is something we’re all afraid of. Oh really? You’re kidding? Well I’ll be! So seriously, it’s true and I admit that it’s true for me. I recently had an “ah ha!” moment that wasn’t quite as Oprah-exciting as the moment sounds. I was thinking through…
Being Silent
I like to talk. Even in my introverted desire to be alone, I like to talk. I especially enjoy a healthy round of verbal tenis where you don’t necessarily agree with your opponent’s strategy or ability but you enjoy the topic and you’re both emotionally strong enough to slug it out. Back and forth. Back…
cycles
the world i live in is very cyclical, therefore, for me not to live cyclically is unconsciously frustrating. until now. God answers prayer. i’ve been in a bit of a funk, not particularly thrilled by anything except the act of completing something. if i can cross it off, i want to do it. if its…
kindness
leads to repentance…to saying “i’m sorry,” returning the favor, extending the welcome. it’s so good yet its infrequent use seems to suggest that it’s a hidden knowledge. perhaps there’s something gnostic about it? (kidding!) it’s probably one of my most frustrating desires. when received, i feel like gold. when desired, i feel like…like something far…
Memory
Matthew, I know you can’t hear me but I guess part of me still grieves and all of me would love it if you’d walk through the door again. The last time I saw you was almost a year ago now. A Wednesday night. You told me to go home. I said see you tomorrow….
a sensory relief
my tires are old–i must purchase new ones perhaps as soon as today. i can hear them, louder than ever and i can feel them. the signs are so clear that i don’t even need to look at them. hearing and feeling are enough to make a costly purchase, an essential change. the clarity of…