To Whom It May Concern, Nina was just trying to take two good steps after what felt like a thousand bad ones—a thousand and one if you count the eggs she over-boiled for breakfast that morning. She’d woken up without an alarm, promptly beginning what she hoped would be a manageable morning routine—drink a cup […]
What happens when the unexpected becomes the impossible?
And these unexpected bits have turned into a 5000 piece puzzle that is 5% trees and 95% water.
My journey with long covid
Having long covid didn’t seem possible, so I thought, because my illness hadn’t been severe. Maybe the fatigue thing was because I was “doing too much”.
I don’t think this is true.
“There is no reason for this pain.” I keyed each word onto a phone note so as not to forget the insane lesson many of us have been taught, that every bad thing we experience can be chalked up to the hand of God which apparently intentionally drops calamity onto our heads for God’s purpose. […]
Affirmations
Some folks are very deep into affirmations, be it giving them to others or memorizing them to give to themselves. I’ve often been the skeptical receiver, assuming the giver doesn’t know me well enough to affirm me and/or is hoping that their affirmation will make themselves feel better about our relationship. Like, “If I can […]
good grief
Is the underlying assumption from my questioner that grief isn’t just about someone dying but wondering about where they’ll end up in the end?
(Mis)carriage: processing grace
I say that wishing I could have intervened, wishing I knew how to convince you that losing a(nother) child deserves at least a few days off. Sure, the procedure didn’t require a hospital stay but…oh honey, your heart. I’m amazed. No, not impressed. Amazed. Amazed you didn’t break.