Everything

It’s not a pending doom; I’m not that melodramatic. It is a change, however, and a big one that I know I can’t be perfectly prepared for. That’s part of the problem, really.

yes, i really am ok

ask me again tomorrow. tuesday may roll in with tears and gnashing teeth but just for now, all is well. that's how it's been for a while now. good one day, bad the next. feeling whole one moment and empty the next. energized and then gross as acid reflux strikes yet again. and i'm one of …

and then…

(from june 24, 2014)when you haven't yet cried over something and then the flip is randomly switched... it's such a vulnerable space. the tears flow as if to say, "dare us to stop," and you know it's good and right and real and honest. and still. it confuses while simultaneously clarifying. you could have died. or …

joy, the pure kind

i almost didn't write about this and i find it strange that i didn't think to write about it much sooner. well, here's the deal.today we (my husband and i) got really good news. and no, we're not pregnant. today was my 2nd post-op appt since having the 4.5 inch and 10 inch fibroids removed back …