It’s not a pending doom; I’m not that melodramatic. It is a change, however, and a big one that I know I can’t be perfectly prepared for. That’s part of the problem, really.
ask me again tomorrow. tuesday may roll in with tears and gnashing teeth but just for now, all is well. that’s how it’s been for a while now. good one day, bad the next. feeling whole one moment and empty the next. energized and then gross as acid reflux strikes yet again. and i’m one of […]
I post a lot about being pregnant and I’m sure that folks are really tired of seeing my Facebook updates on the matter. The pics. The statuses. Oh, the hashtags. I probably used to be really sensitive about not dwelling on one thing for too long, changing up subject matters and such. 9 months ago, […]
(from june 24, 2014) when you haven’t yet cried over something and then the flip is randomly switched… it’s such a vulnerable space. the tears flow as if to say, “dare us to stop,” and you know it’s good and right and real and honest. and still. it confuses while simultaneously clarifying. you could have […]
I’m sure someone will correct me if I’m wrong. For now, I’ll believe I’m right and I drink accordingly. I’m pregnant, you see, and things are happening to my body that I never could have imagined in either my most creative or delusional moments. One of the latest of these great wonders is feeling sick […]
a year ago yesterday, i sat at the end of the church pew and cried. i couldn’t help it. i couldn’t stop it. each tear effortlessly streamed down my face. why? because the children were handing out flowers to mothers but not to me. i tried to prep myself the day before, reading a blog that […]
i almost didn’t write about this and i find it strange that i didn’t think to write about it much sooner. well, here’s the deal. today we (my husband and i) got really good news. and no, we’re not pregnant. today was my 2nd post-op appt since having the 4.5 inch and 10 inch fibroids […]