it’s all gone

it felt like hours. i didn't think we were getting an ultrasound today but when we got that news i was excited. it meant we got to hear our baby's heartbeat once again. the first time was incredible. it was a sort of confirmation that we're truly on this journey toward parenthood. the tech couldn't …

Lost

It's how I feel. I feel compelled to talk to my friend's mom who just lost her husband and my own blood family and yet I don't know what I'd say and I feel as though I should know. After all, I'm a pastor, right? I have words. I'm supposed to have words. But really, …

family.

it's not often you get to watch a funeral at 4am on your laptop and it's not often that you want to. and when it's over, you're not sure if you should say you're glad you got to or that you're grateful. you certainly shouldn't say you loved every minute, not out loud anyway. well, …