as if it isn’t official….

death is a sick, sick thing

two people i knew are dead within the span of 2 weeks…were we close? no. but that’s not the point. the point is that their husbands, children, siblings, parents, etc., now wake up without them.

today’s funeral was for a 30 yr old woman. …30.

tomorrow’s funeral will be for someone in her 50s. …50s.

so that’s like me burying a sibling and a parent right now. and i’m presently numb. tomorrow i’ll feel more and then i’ll walk around downtown chicago as if the only thing on my mind is a new pair of shoes.

i’ll let you know how the shoes feel…

i’m really not being flippant here. trust me. i just don’t feel yet and i’m processing that reality, the reality that head knowledge hasn’t yet become heart…

death is a sick, sick thing. but it’s also sometimes okay.

…we don’t grieve as those who have no hope…

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