i’ve often wondered why i don’t feel when things crumble. certain pain just doesn’t hurt me. it has to be close, not close in proximity but close in memory. hotel rwanda hurt b/c it reminded me of liberia. 9/11 didn’t do much. the london bombs didn’t do much.
i wish i could feel pain beyond my memory, but i’m so far removed. so far, i’m not connected. so far, i’m somewhat safely distant enough to not worry. that knowledge confuses me.